Sigh. I feel nuts. I've been wishing for him to go back here [in the RP] all day, but deep inside, he doesn't even want to. K feels sad that he's leaving Shanghai. I don't know if I am being shallow or petty but FUCK IT. I don't know what to feel anymore. Seems like he's not even affected that we barely talk anymore, despite the fact that I do everything within my power to reach him. Seems like he doesn't care anymore. Oh well. "SORRY J, NO TIME FOR LOVE."