I've got a test on literature and I still act like nothing's up. (!)

I met with Puffy last night and I was hoping we could do a but more than just 'meet'. Well, I wasn't lucky enough, so yeah. Anyway, I understand. Sometimes, there's nothing you could do but to understand stuff. Well, I'm having my fair share of that these past few days. I know it wasn't anybody's fault, but I still feel like shit. I don't know. Seems like whenever we meet, he's always tired. Whenever we talk, he's always tired. So, how could we possibly make love? We can't. Especially now, that my evil dad is here, we can't do overnights like we used to. And just the thought of that makes me feel like shit. Don't get me wrong, I know it's not all sex. But I've got no sex!

Anyway, yeah, I will be having a Korg X5 on my birthday and I plan to use it with my Mac, along with my other guitars/musical equipments. :-)

Well, Hi. So yeah, I won't be continuing my plans going to Powerdance. I'll just go and enroll a course on John Robert Powers. I think I need to learn something from there. Something I could apply to my daily life. Like, being organized! :D

Yesterday was a bit tiring for me. I waited for my parents to arrive in our house here in manila (they came from our house in Cavite, a suburb of Manila). I was bored to hell in the morning and early afternoon. I was staying in my cousin's place (well, technically, it's my place. I just allowed him to stay there. So he doesn't have the right to get mean to me or act shitty or anything because I could evict him anytime I fancy). So there, they arrived at like 3.00p and we had mass after we unloaded their stuff from the car. We went to Mall Of Asia right after the mass and we watched an IMAX movie. Afterwards we went to Dampa (it's a place wherein you have to buy the stuff you want to eat from a nearby market and make the restaurant you're eating in to cook the stuff for you). Then, we went home. I was pretty exhausted when I got home. So is Puffy. He cooked a lot of stuff for his sister's party. Good thing, we still talked a bit when I got home.

I was impressed when I watched at MoA's (Mall of Asia) IMAX theater. I think all movies should be made that way. But, I've got to admit, I feel stupid wearing the spectacles they gave me when I entered the theater. Anyway, It feels utterly realistic. I think all of the motion pictures should be made that way. Imagine porn on IMAX theater! It's like a voyeour's fantasy came true! Hah.

Anyway, I was never fond of eating in Dampa. I admit, some of the food they serve tastes nice, but the place! The place! It's filthy. Seriously! Also, I don't like seafood, so, it not -and will never be- my place.

That's all for now.

Hi. Well, I don't know where to start. Anyway, exam's this week! Ugh! I hope I pass all my tests! I've been wanting to good in school from now on. Matter of fact I'll post what I've got on all my assignments and quizzes and tests from here on in. That means, I think I'll be using this blog more regularly to post the results and keep track on what I've got.

I think I need to be more organized and hardworking. I need to practice those two things. I've observed some people I considered successful and aside from the fact that they're intellectually good, if not, better than most people, I noticed that they're very organized, precise and extremely hardworking. Hah. I need those if I want to be successful. Persistence is out of the question for me. I'm the most persistent man I know (no kidding). If I'm in the mood, I won't give up until I'm not physically capable of trying things over and over until I get it right consistently.

Anyway, I'm a bit hyped up for the coming summer. As I've told you, I'm taking up ballroom. I know most people don't appreciate it. I do, but not all. I like to watch and perform Tango. I want to dance! Hah. I know I haven't got much talent in dancing, but that's the point. I want to gain more skills in it. I want to be better.

I met with puffy (K) last night. I miss him again. We had dinner and some coffee and we just talked and enjoyed each other's company. I think we'll meet again on Wednesday for a dinner together, because I don't think we'll meet on the weekend because my dad is here. Meaning, I can't go out that freely because he is fucked up. Don't ask for further explanation. Plus, it's his sister's graduation and his grandma's birthday, so I really don't think we could meet. Sigh.

We met yesterday at Glorietta and I saw this guitar at Perfect Pitch. Variax 300 BX. I want that guitar. I've into guitars since last last year. I know I'm not that much of a guitarist (I'm more of a pianist/keyboardist) but guitars are more collectible than pianos. Pianos are way too expensive to collect. I own a couple of Fenders (3 Stratocasters (all of them are black body but one has a pearl pickguard (50th anniversary edition)), Telecaster (Ash)), Ibanez (GRG 20 (black), (RG1527 (blue, floyd rose tremolo)), Gibson, (Les Paul Standard (black))Anyway, I want to get that Variax. That'd be my first Variax guitar. My effects is a Zoom GFX-8 Multi Effects Pedalling Board and I only have one amp. I use a Marshall 1962 Bluesbreaker that came as a hand-me-down from my Dad. As for my piano I use a Yamaha Clavinova Electric Piano. It has weighed keys that mimic an acoustic piano, and that means, I could still do finger strength exercise with it. And the nice thing about it is I never need retuning because my piano doesn't have strings! I also own a 3/4 Parrot violin that I do not play (I don't know how).

Hi. It's been a long time since I wrote in this. Anyway, life's been, well, somewhat good to me and to us. Hah. I hope school doesn't end next week, so I'll have an excuse to go out this summer, but I just have to face the fact that it will. I hope I pass all my subjects. Sigh. I miss my Puffy. I wish we have each other around always, but I don't think that'd happen within the next two years. By the way, I got this Nokia 8800 from my mum and I think it's a nice phone. Not everybody uses it, and that's what I'm after for. I don't like everyone using the same model as mine. :D

I plan to go to a dance school this summer. Namely, Powerdance. I've been wanting to dance Argentinian Tango for quite sometime now, I think it'd be a nice way to kill time this summer. Plus, I think that'd give me a couple of excuses to go out. I like Argentinian Tango because it's somewhat dirty. I like dirty stuff. :D I mean, it's like having sex on the dance floor. I wish I could dance Tango with my puffy. But, from what I heard of, he doesn't dance. I hope that he'd allow me to teach him.

Anyway, I do have a new guitar but it's just a POS Lumanog. Sigh. I miss the old days where I get a new guitar in a week's interval. I've been wanting an Ibanez JEM-555 but I think that'd be to much to ask from my aunt or my grandma. Costs PHP 105,000.00 (US$ 2,100.00++) But it's nice. Steve Vai uses one. It has a H-S-H (hambucker - single coil - hambucker) configuration and it looks nice.

Sigh. I feel nuts. I've been wishing for him to go back here [in the RP] all day, but deep inside, he doesn't even want to. K feels sad that he's leaving Shanghai. I don't know if I am being shallow or petty but FUCK IT. I don't know what to feel anymore. Seems like he's not even affected that we barely talk anymore, despite the fact that I do everything within my power to reach him. Seems like he doesn't care anymore. Oh well. "SORRY J, NO TIME FOR LOVE."

Heard this song while I was eating lunch and I thought that this song says all what I want to say about K. Sigh. I miss him.


I Wish That I Was Making Love With You Tonight - Alessi Brothers


girl i miss you.. i feel you wanting me over the telephone
and i'm still here alone and though it seems so close to a perfect day..
when everything just went my way, i've had the longest night i've ever known..

i wish that i was making love to you tonight.. (wish i was makin love)
i've never seen so many stars or a moon as bright..
and baby you're what's missing, could make it all just right..
and i wish that i was making love to you tonight..

in the darkness i feel my empty bed covered with loneliness
we pay for our success in ways we never could have dreamed before..
babe, i need you more and more and nothing ever makes me want you less..

i wish that i was making love to you tonight.. (wish i was making..)
i've never seen so many stars and a moon as bright..
and baby you're what's missing, could make it all just right..
and i wish that i was making love to you tonight..

wish that i was making love..
wish that i was making love..

and baby you're what's missing, could make it all just right..
and i wish that i was making love to you..
i wish that i was making love to you.. tonight..

wish i was making love..

and baby you're what's missing, could make it all just right
and i wish that i was making love to you..
i wish that i was making love to you.. tonight..


So there. I couldn't have said it better myself. Sigh.

Heard this song while I was eating lunch and I thought that this song says all what I want to say about K. Sigh. I miss him.


I Wish That I Was Making Love With You Tonight - Alessi Brothers


girl i miss you.. i feel you wanting me over the telephone
and i'm still here alone and though it seems so close to a perfect day..
when everything just went my way, i've had the longest night i've ever known..

i wish that i was making love to you tonight.. (wish i was makin love)
i've never seen so many stars or a moon as bright..
and baby you're what's missing, could make it all just right..
and i wish that i was making love to you tonight..

in the darkness i feel my empty bed covered with loneliness
we pay for our success in ways we never could have dreamed before..
babe, i need you more and more and nothing ever makes me want you less..

i wish that i was making love to you tonight.. (wish i was making..)
i've never seen so many stars and a moon as bright..
and baby you're what's missing, could make it all just right..
and i wish that i was making love to you tonight..

wish that i was making love..
wish that i was making love..

and baby you're what's missing, could make it all just right..
and i wish that i was making love to you..
i wish that i was making love to you.. tonight..

wish i was making love..

and baby you're what's missing, could make it all just right
and i wish that i was making love to you..
i wish that i was making love to you.. tonight..


So there. I couldn't have said it better myself. Sigh.

I feel really sad today. K left for China yesterday and I feel so horrid. Ugh. I don't know why I feel like this. I tried to do al lot of stuff to keep my mind away from all these sad thoughts but to no avail. Ugh. I'm so fucking sad. I hope we could see each other again.